Yesterday was not like today! Yesterday I spent an hour and a half just reading my bible and drinking coffee, nothing unusual about that… but I remember at one moment just enjoying myself and asking God to expand my capacity to be in his presence! I didn’t expect him to answer my prayer so quickly!
Today when I sat down… I started the day the same way, with my coffee and my bible! I started reading at 9:30am and from there Holy Spirit just lead me into a time of worship, exalting God and singing out my desire to be in His presence. Next thing I know… I’m weeping in the presence of God and just so overwhelmed at his goodness and love and grace towards us! Even as I write this, I can’t contain my tears at the memory of such goodness being showered down on me! Who am I that I am blessed in such a favored way? The Lord just swept me away into his presence, into the secret place where it’s just Him and I.
In this secret place (my living room :) I had this incredible time of kneeling and prostrating myself before the throne of God. As the tears ran down my cheeks and I closed my eyes, I could see the throne of God directly in front of me. All I could do was be on my knees, hunched over with my hands lifted high to him. I was worshiping the King of Glory and being wrapped and surrounded in His Presence, His Love, and His Glory. It was too beautiful to explain – experiencing such a gentle love and grace that makes you want to adore Him and continue worshiping Him in humility. There was the absence of worthlessness even though I was in the presence of the most majestic King alive! I am in no way comparable to my Lord but I didn’t feel like a servant who is ‘less than’ and under the rule of his master. I was His child. I was coming to my Father out of joy, love, and the anticipation of the words He wants to share with me! We had an unexplainable bond. I was able to recognize that it was out of His overwhelming love for me that I was able to love him in return and have this confidence in His presence to ask for whatever my heart desired!
Once I had a chance to reflect on what happened, I asked the Lord… Why me? Why did you have me experience something so unexplainably Majestic. His response to this question was, “You were available.” “You were available to spend time with me. You wanted to be in my presence and asked for it! It is my delight to have my child walk with me and understand my ways and I will gladly show them to those who ask for it! My desire is for you and to be in constant relationship with you. I search high and low for those who are hungry for my truth and for my words and who desire the same things I desire! I reward the patient, the hungry and the trustworthy who are working for my kingdom and my cause. They will be the ones to experience my presence and know me.”
Now the time happens to be 1:49pm and I can barely type this cause I feel myself being sucked back into the heart of worship! The day has been wasted in his presence and there’s no other way I would’ve spent it! Continue to worship the Lord as you go about your day! Be Blessed, Shelly